A Thousand Pieces.

My heart feels like it’s not whole.
Like it’s not one.
I feel like my heart has broken into several small pieces.
Not because I got hurt.
Not because I someone I love betrayed me.

It broke like how friends naturally drift apart.
Slowly and steadily. But definitely.
I don’t know what’s wrong.
But something’s wrong.

How do I join the pieces back together?

It’s not that my life is missing a piece of the puzzle.
It’s just that there are a lot of pieces and it’s really difficult to complete the puzzle.

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  1. Marcus says:

    I’m not crazy about “liking” this type of write – one of hurt – but it communicates and I can feel the betrayal. This is well written – and your last two lines sum things up nicely. I’m sorry for this kind of pain – but I understand.

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    1. shubhada says:

      Thanks, Marcus. πŸ™‚
      I’m not betrayed or anything, I’m just kinda lost. And I don’t even want to find my way. You know.. Something like that.

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  2. hbhatnagar says:

    The loss of not knowing what is lost….

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    1. shubhada says:

      Oh yes. Exactly my feeling right now.

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      1. hbhatnagar says:

        I hope you find it. Losing is indescribably black.

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  3. Been so long πŸ˜€ How are you? πŸ™‚

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    1. shubhada says:

      I’m fine Mon! I’ve been a really selfish person this whole month – not really following any of my blogger friends’ posts, and all. And I’m not sure whether I’m going to be much active in future either! :/

      How are you doing, Mon?

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      1. I am fine at this moment. It’s good to take a blogging break, unlike being addicted like me xD

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      2. shubhada says:

        Hahaha.. No! It’s not nice to dissappear suddenly when you’ve been really active all the time! God knows why, I just don’t find the time to blog! And I feel really guilty about posting something and not reading anyone else’s post. :/

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  4. Tejaswi says:

    Very nice, very sad too, Shubhada. I like that it is subtle without too much drama πŸ™‚ Still, sad thoughts…

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    1. shubhada says:

      Thanks, Tejaswi. πŸ™‚
      I’m okay, really. Writing makes me feel better. So after writing this I did feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. πŸ™‚

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      1. Tejaswi says:

        Yes, writing does that sometimes. But you know what struck me just now? That it must be used as a weapon then, not as a crutch.. When you have powerful emotions within you, then by all means explode. It could end up creating something beautiful and eternal πŸ™‚

        Not being facetious or pompous, just thinking aloud πŸ™‚

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      2. shubhada says:

        Yes, you are so right! πŸ˜€
        I agree.

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      3. Tejaswi says:

        πŸ™‚ Take care, Shubhada.. hope to read more of your poetry or writing… And, stay happy πŸ™‚

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      4. shubhada says:

        Thank you Tejaswi! πŸ’œ

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  5. Paul says:

    I can relate to this a lot.

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    1. shubhada says:

      You can? I always thought you’re this person who has it all sorted in his head!

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      1. Paul says:

        Ha I wish! Not always.

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      2. shubhada says:

        πŸ˜›πŸ˜

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  6. You’re okay or not?Tell me that.*STARES her down*
    Ada,such stuff is kinda terrifying to read,you know. And that too,after being MIA for days.*sighs*

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    1. shubhada says:

      Hahaha, Vi! 😘
      I’m okay. Kind of. πŸ˜›
      I feel like I’m not doing anything worthwhile. And I don’t know WHAT I should do to make my life better. To make it fuller. You know? I’ve joined painting classes, hoping that’ll it’ll make me happy. Let’s see how things work out!

      You’re so caring, A! I like you. ❀❀

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      1. Okay. I get what you are trying to say. Kind of. I was going through that phase where everything felt wrong;incomplete. Now,it’s much better. But yeah. I kinda get it.*Nods*
        I still feel like I am wasting my life,doing nothing. At all.:/
        And I am. I am really not doing anything to make my life something worth living for.
        I am doing into the deep end aren’t I?*sighs again*
        Let’s hope the painting classes give you the happiness that’s been missing. The incompleteness feels completed.
        Annnnnd,I am really not all that awesome! *sheepish expression*
        But I like you,too. And I don’t say that all that often. So you’re lucky.*winks*πŸ’‹β€

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      2. shubhada says:

        Hahahaha! C’mon, I’ve read a lot of your comments where you say you love or like someone! πŸ˜›

        And yes, I feel it too.. That I’m wasting my time doing nothing. :\
        If I’m not wrong you’re a med student? That’s something. I’m doing my bachelor in economics which has no value whatsoever. I’ll have to do MA later. So BA is just a step. But still, BA feels like nothing.

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      3. When?!!!Not real,living people. I do love Sheldon,though. *smirks*
        I have only ever said I like someone a handful of times.*shrugs*
        I knowwww!
        And you’re damn wrong,dude.*WIDE EYES*
        You really don’t know?!
        Man!
        I am doing economic honors, too.πŸ˜’ 2nd year.
        I thought you knew. I did.:|
        Sooooo,same boat here.*waves her hand in indication*

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      4. shubhada says:

        Oooohhh! We’re so similar then!!! No, I had no idea you’re doing eco honors!! Omg!! This is a new similarity I’m discovering!! I want to meet youu! And I hate it that there’s so much mystery around you!! πŸ˜›
        1. Your name.
        2. Where you stay.
        I mean these are basic things you NEED to know when you know other deeper stuff about someone! πŸ˜›

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      5. Wow okay. Yes we are!:D
        I want to meet you,too. But you’re in Bombay,right? I wanna visit Bombay and Goa again. I visited when I was 4. So,no recollection. That’s why I wanna visit again. And I just might. My parents were planning a trip. So,if I do,I am meeting you. You’ll have to come see me wherever I am at. Deal?:D
        Hahahhahhahahahah
        Okaay. Not the name. But where I stay is no mystery. I am in Delhi.:)
        A student of DU. Are you in MU?Actually a friend of mine visited Bombay sometime back and he made a video about what mumbaikars thought about DU for his YouTube channel. It was hilarious!:P
        Annnd,so except my name you know the basic stuff now.:P

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      6. shubhada says:

        Hahahaha, yes, I’m in MU! Okay, yes, I do know stuff now. Except for the name, of course! πŸ˜›

        Andd DEAL. We’ll meet when you’re in Mumbai!!

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      7. Okaaay. Cool!Is it as awesome as DU is?*serious expression*
        Yeah,yeah.:P You do.
        *chuckles*I was kidding about the awesome part,by the way. Lol
        And we will.:) Be ready to come see me.:D

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      8. shubhada says:

        Oh yes! I don’t know much about DU. But I’ve heard it’s really difficult to get into Delhi colleges because of the sky high cut offs? πŸ˜“

        I’m all ready! πŸ˜€

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      9. shubhada says:

        Eep, okay, should I feel guilty that I didn’t know about your education course? 😜😝

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      10. Yesss!Definitely! We talked so much back then when you were regularly active on WP and you don’t know this?!!!

        Jk don’t worry about it.:D

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      11. shubhada says:

        Hahahahaha!! Yeah, we did talk a lot!! ❀

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      12. Hahaha yes,we did. Like everyday even.:P

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      13. shubhada says:

        Yeah! It was fun, wasn’t it?!

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      14. Yessssssssss!Totally!Whenever you’re back for good,we can start again.:P

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      15. shubhada says:

        Hahaha I don’t think I’ll be ‘back for good’ for quite some time, Violet!

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      16. Oh my!Okay. Whenever,whenever.
        Take your time. πŸ™‚

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      17. shubhada says:

        πŸ˜„πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜

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  7. Little Rants says:

    I know it’s clichΓ© advice, but you’ll get there. Time heals, you know.

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    1. shubhada says:

      Oh yeah, it does! Thanks, sooch! πŸ’œ

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  8. markbialczak says:

    Shooby Doo, dearie. You can drift awhile. Ships happen. You’ll find yourself. The purpose is to be good for you, good for the world, good for your family and friends. ❀

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    1. shubhada says:

      Yeah markie (can I call you markie? I’ll keep changing my pet names for you, by the way), you’re right. Thanks for always caring. ❀❀❀❀

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      1. markbialczak says:

        You can call me anything you wish, Shoobie Doo. Feel better, life is good.

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  9. This was so beautiful! πŸ˜€

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    1. shubhada says:

      Thank you, miss book thief! πŸ˜› πŸ™‚

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      1. You’re welcome, S. Imma call you S. *grins* My name is Rupali. Call me whatever you want, except Rupa. I haaaattteeee that name. *shudders*

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      2. shubhada says:

        Hahahahah! Rupa sounds good.. I’m gonna call you Rupa. πŸ˜›

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      3. Nooooo. *horrified expression* Don’t do this to me, S. Pleeaasseeee. *cries*

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      4. shubhada says:

        Hahaha I’ll call you miss book thief or Rupali!

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      5. Sure, whatever. πŸ˜€ Anything, except Rupa. hahaha!

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