I started studying today. If you call flitting through contents of overweight books ‘studying’.
This is so damn frustrating!! I never imagined this is going to be so difficult!!
I hadn’t understood some topics the teacher had taught us. So I thought I’d study those topics from the reference book the teacher suggested. And dad was going to get those books for me. Easy peasy.
He’s an economics professor, so he has an easy access to books in his college. But he didn’t get a single book I actually needed. He handed over some books that he thinks will be helpful. Well, they aren’t helpful, dad!!
When I started looking for the topics, I realised dad had got me all the wrong books. I did find a single topic I needed to read.
And now I’m feeling so… I don’t know what I’m feeling. All I know is that I would be feeling much better if I were in the library reading through topics I haven’t understood in college.
When I know that I don’t know something, it irritates the shit out of me.
And I’m also a tad bit scared. If I took an hour to look for two topics, that too in vain;
How will I search and understand and make notes of the hundred other topics in my syllabus?